happiness times eleventy billion

this sunday, not only will my son be baptized, but i will be celebrating my first mother's day.  now, this time last year, the husband did make a big deal, and he even got me a gift!  but, this time last year, the monkey man looked like this:

and really, matthew (not the awesome DS that the husband got me) was the best present of all.  this year, though, i'm so thrilled to be spending the day with my family, and most of all, matthew.  it's hard for me to think back to a year ago.  i mean, he was a little alien baby, and now he's this little person:  

                                

*actually taken in february. his cheeks are MUCH smooshier now.  and yes, i'm pretty sure smooshier is a word.

a year ago i was hardly into my second trimester, and now i'm worrying about whether he'll like fruits or vegetables better.  a year ago i wasn't able to consume chinese food or kashi cereal and now i'm delighting in matthew's two front teeth and his ability to sort of roll over.  although, with the whole rolling over thing, i like it when toby does that too! 

my life has changed incredibly in the last year, going from non-prego person...

to prego person... 

to lady with a baby.......

*please note that he is soooooooo teeny he is here.  8 days old.

but it has only changed for the better.  i'm in a wonderful place in my life, with the husband and the cutest baby beside me.  although i worry everyday about being a great mom, and most of the day i spending doubting my abilities, and that i'm wrecking him in some way (i am only sort of joking when i say we're saving for his therapy, not college), i'm so happy to be the mother i am, because matthew has made me the mother i am.  i know i'll continue to grow and change in my relationship with both the husband and matthew, i'm so excited for what lies ahead.  i really understand what family means, and i have matthew to thank for that.  and i'm finally happy.  times eleventy billion.